Phases & the Passing Shadow of GE2

Being going through a phase of not good sleep. Too much waking up in the middle of the night and then not being able to go back to sleep again. Too much indigestion as I lie there in the dark, eyes open. Hope it ain't gonna last forever, yeah I know that things mainly go in cycles and they change and evolve into something different but all the same there is no doubt that at the moment this waking up in the dead of night phase has been going on for what now feels like far too long. But there is no guarantee when it is going to stop. Surely it was not that long when I was able to hit the sack and just go boom till morning sleeping the sleep of the dead?

Evenings can be a drag at the moment, or at least the last couple have been. Seemed to have hit a blank patch, guess it is the perfect complement to the sleepless nights. But again it is only a phase in time and will surely evolve into something else. Slowly wading my way through David Copperfield which on occasion can deliver to a staggering degree and at other times is hard for me to engage with, don't know why it is like that for me this time around, very different from my experience of reading Bleak House which had me gripped from start to finish. Maybe nothing to do with the books themselves, just a different place and different time.

There is also the fact that sometimes being here in the house on my own and only having a book for company in the evenings can be awfully tiring, especially when I have gone through the chore of getting some grub in my gut, a task which at the moment I am not doing that well, too much of the wrong kind of food and eating it too fast. Not only is it in my gut but on my gut as well because I am feeling fat. Anyway if I want to look for reasons why I am waking up in the middle of the night feeling uncomfortable quite a lot of the answer lies in my eating habits. Just a little bit too much of the caveman about me for my own good, after all it only me who has to pay the price for stuffing it all in just a little but too quickly.

Guess I miss the Ghost Eternal 2 stuff as well and the fact that for the moment all is done and dusted as far as that is concerned. I mean that I have now loaded onto GE2 all the poems, writings, stuff, whatever you want to call them, from my archives that I want to use and now there is nothing more to go on. 168 poems from over the last 30 years, well actually 157 but because Nullabor Song is so long I have chopped it up into 12 sections on GE2 for the sake of keeping it reasonably containable.

Got to say that it was really great just sitting on the sofa night after night with the candles burning, the music on, freezing cold outside, and sorting out all those poems that I have written over the years. Pretty pleased with the result as well, think they look good on GE2 and think I can definitely say that I will go back to it every once in a while and have a read of them. Better also not to have loaded them up chronological, prefer them all mixed up together. Anyway, like it says at the end of the note on the GE2 blog - time now to move on. We live a life of phases after all.