Work Blues 2

I write this blog, tryin' to stay calm, tryin' to stay focused but it is easier said than done boy, it is easier said than done. It is true sometimes when they say you can feel the walls closin' in. Too much suffocation. Can lead to accidents, or to doing things which in the cold light of day you would say you never intended to do. But that is the point, you are being taken to a place where the calm reasoning side of your nature is bein' squeezed like a lemon.

Situations can come along which betray the deep feelings of bitterness I can still have towards my life. Yeah, easy to say on the one hand Buddha Boy that it is karma and that it must be gone through in order to come out the other side properly cleansed, but the question is if you let it perpetuate it might gone on for ever an' ever. Never fuckin' end. An' if that is the case why not sling a rope over a branch of the nearest tree and swing from the end of it? By the neck of course. Is it really such a sin?

It is supposed to be going to be a long hot summer for the citizens of Lud but I very much doubt that there is going to be much fun for me when I fall into these kinda mental landscapes of scrapin' negative thud. Strain an' suffering all the way are the only things that I can see on the horizon. Don't know what the autumn will be like and at the moment a part of me doesn't really care, whilst at the same time a part of me cares oh so very much. 1989-2009 is 20 years at my current occupation. Might be getting close to the point now of calling it a day.