Age 46

Often wander round my house wondering just what the hell it is that I am supposed to do. Many people have hobbies; things that keep them interested in life. Keep them wanting to stay alive. It might be cooking, gardening, doing up cars. Whatever it is it gives them a shot of energy, makes them feel positive enough to want to carry on. When I look at myself and my own lack of development when it comes to these things, I worry. I seem to have so little in comparison. I mean I do a bit of meditation whenever I get the chance and whenever I have the energy for it, but it doesn't go that deep. There are also the books I read, mainly Buddhist ones, but not always, and there is the music I listen to. And that is about it.